Another reason to write

I start 2019 with the worst news . One of my aunt that sick . She's diagnosed with cancer . Truth to be told I don't have enough courage at all when I visited her at the hospital . She's so nice and happy go lucky person . When I came to her house , she will greet us with so much happiness but now I can't hear her voices anymore . She can't talk anymore . Among the other aunt , most of my siblings closed with her . Since I was a kid , my mom will leave me under her care especially when she go for outstation . When , my father passed away I stay with her .

Then , before the   february end my another aunt passed away and I can't go back for the funeral as I have strict classes . My mom and my sister also don't allowed me to go back . I know that she's sick but I never thought that it was that serious . She's the aunt that never raise her voice to me and treat me so nice . Why everyone that nice with me is leaving me?

Today ,I got the news from my sister that my aunt that sick is in critical condition . Oh god , I immediately cried . I don't want to lose anyone again . I can't bear the pain of losing someone . If someone is leaving but still alive , I might can move on with this . But , if someone leaving me like my dad did .... how I want to move on . I never move on from my dad till now .

Nineteen

Never thought that I will write again in this blog . My last teen , yehet I'm 19teen . I never thought that time will fly so fast . I never thought I will study in one of the famous University in Malaysia . I never thought that my major course will be Physics . I never thought that I have great friends till now . I never thought that I have wonderful and funny people surrounds me  . I never thought that actually I have many supporters behind my back , friends and family . I never thought that actually I have good life . Alhamdulilah , I hope I never forget that words as I always think the bad side that happened in my life .

Kehidupan sebenar bermula .

This is not the ending for my teen life , but a prolouge for my real life . Baru sedar that I need to be more confident , have more courage nak buat sesuatu . I need to overcome my fear . As kehidupan yang sebenar lebih mencabar . Di mana , mungkin semasa I'm having hard times my friends can't be there for me . That time what I need is courage to face the fear .

Mungkin , aku hanya matang dalam penulisan kerana akal dan minda aku masih belum sedia untuk dunia sebenar .

Thanks , for all the wishes especially from my mom . The best dua' is from you . I might look strong in front others people but actually I'm not that strong .

Just a lucky girl that have many friends .

2017

Seventeen

For me a birthday , is just a day where everyone will wish " Happy Birthday " to me . For me , with that short wish I already feel happy and excited .

I feel so old right now . I think I might be a matured girl koy . LOL

Thank you for celebrating my birthday today . Thank you for the surprise . I'm very glad to have all of you as my friends , GGM and FSO . Whatever happened today , will be one of the best birthday in my life .

But one thing that I just realised that my birthday will never be complete and might never be complete .

Short post

2014